¡Spoiler Alert!
If you haven't seen the movie, I talk about several parts of the movie.
This depiction of the Snow White fairy tale had a spiritual parallel to me. I was reminded of what john Elderedge was talking about in Waking The Dead in the section about myths. How they speak to our hearts because things are not as they seem here on earth. Each story or movie speaks something different. Not all stories are written to the same person. Not every story is going to speak to every person. This story is not an epic tale or journey. There are epic parts, but it is a fairy tale. There are many versions of the Snow White tale and this is just one of them.
Before Snow White eats the apple, she is timid and unsure of who she is. She didn't believe she had a role to play or that she had an important role to play. When true love touched her, her heart woke up. She saw her part. "I know that fire burns in all of you. The embers must grow. I will be your weapon. I’d rather die today then live another day in this death. And who will ride with me? Who will be my brothers?" She is done with the dark and the evil that is over the kingdom. She is ready to bring the light. “I’ve seen what she sees, I know what she knows. I can kill her.”
When we all allow the Father's love, the true love, touch our heart something awakens. We believe. We believe in ourselves. We believe in the cause. We stop seeing through our eyes and with our experiences, but see with His eyes and His heart.
The warrior heart, the beauty, inside of a woman is different and looks different than the warrior heart of a man. We don't often see it because tradition teaches that the man is the warrior. That the woman is the lesser sex. But we are to compliment each other. God created male and female, each in His own image. Many times, and it comes out in the movie, a person's warrior spirit will bring out the spirit in another person. Snow White's beauty and innocence called out the good, strong, warrior heart of the Huntsman. And the profound statement that Snow White makes to the evil queen as she is dying: "You can't have my heart."
The question is What does it stir in you? It stirred something different in me then it did in Mom. It struck her that "Only by fairest blood it can be undone."
Did it stir anything in you?
Ever had one of those moments when you could see life so clearly? Just like standing on a mountain on a clear, beautiful Pacific Northwest day and being able to see the landscape lying out below. Or like at the top of the Tower of Terror, when the doors open and you can see all of DisneyWorld. There is seriously nothing better in life. I had one of those days two weeks ago. Actually, it was a whole week. My birthday was coming, but not just any birthday. My 25th birthday. I had kinda been dreading it cause a couple of my friends struggled with turning 25. The week before my birthday came and bam, I was feeling really good.
25. A quarter of a century. I'm really not having an issue with this age. Not yet anyways. :) Actually something clicked in my brain. It was a combination of a few things, not just my birthday.
First, we ended a three week Daniel fast and I had fasted caffeine for seven weeks. So it was a pretty intense time spiritually. A time of, once again, learning to die to myself, allowing the Father to be in control of my life, my decisions and my thoughts.
Second, was the radio. Doesn't sound like some deep thing, but it totally changed things. We got a new Christian radio station, 88.1 Air1. They play Christian alternative so artists like Skillet, Sanctus Real, Thousand Foot Krutch, etc. I stopped listening to Christian radio because I couldn't stand Spirit 105.3. It's not a bad station, it just didn't relate to me. Not going to call in the family name game to get tickets to see see Sesame Street live or the Wiggles. And I still knew most of the songs even if I hadn't listened in a year. I seriously like Air1. Their songs are loud, upbeat and alternative. There was finally a Christian radio station I could stand to listen to. One song in particular spoke to me real deep: Afterlife by Switchfoot.
I've tasted fire I'm ready to come alive/I can't just shut it up and fake that I'm alright/I'm ready now/I'm not waiting for the afterlife
Last was my birthday. :)
Why wait to live? Wait for what? A better job? A different time or place in life? A better tomorrow? The phone to ring or the snow to snow or waiting around for a yes or a no or a string of pearls or a pair of pants or a wig with curls or Another Chance?
What am I waiting for? Another 25 years? There are things I want to do, but haven't. Sorta like a bucket list. Why? Fear? Well partially that and lack of funds. :P So I decided to start somewhere. I died chunks of my hair purple.
What do you want to do?
What are you waiting for?
In April an opportunity opened for me to become the director of a child care center. It was a dream I had waited for. Four months after the doors opened they closed. We had gone from 8 children enrolled to 2. We had posted and passed out flyers. We had talked to people at the park, walking down the street as well as friends and family. Nothing was bringing the kids in. With 2 children we just couldn't afford to keep the doors opened. We gave the parents the option to put their children in our sister center. Which is where I am now working again.
So life took a turn that I was not expecting. I'm really not sure where I am going now or what I am doing. It's an exciting and scary place to be. This past week I've bawled my eyes out, had an "I don't even care, whatever attitude and been really excited for what's next. There have been overwhelming times and sit back and think times. The song Sing Me A Love Song by BarlowGirl really spoke to me the other day. This time has forced me to run into the arms of Jesus since my usual security blanket is in Romania (that would be my mom). I guess this is another learning to trust Jesus time. Sigh, I thought I had learned this already. :P Maybe this time it will stick.
God is at the very core of their marriage. Everything they do flows around their central faith. They purposed to do things together. If one of them didn't like the activity, they found a way to like it. Now, after knowing each other for 55 years, they like everything they do together. They have gone on adventures together. This couple travels so much. To Israel, a cruise in Panama, they are going on a Russian cruise, all over the US and beyond. They love people. That was evident in the amount of people that showed up and the places they had met them. From being next door neighbors to their ski club, hiking group, Church, Crimson Bridge, and various other ministries they serve in. I have been so blessed to have grown up around these two amazing people. They have watched me grow up, have prayed over my life and spoken words of wisdom into my heart.
rty there are marriages that are so strong in God and they are so in love with each other. In this day where marriage is viewed as disposable it is refreshing to see people who live by the "To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do us part" vows said at the alter. It fills my heart with joy as I look at the cloud of witnesses I have before me. It gives me hope as I patiently wait for my future man.
